Thursday, June 21, 2012

Dear Emma,

What an awesome gift you are to me.
Today we went to the dr about my diabetes.
I was recalling how afraid she was of you at first.  She had not grown up with dogs.
Well at first she just couldn't get over her fear even though she had known me a few years or more.
So her nurse happily kept you with her.  As my husband and I go together.
i need that extra set of ears.
then she saw how calm you were and invited you in.
I would have you lay so peacefully on your blanket in the room.
you know those rooms are not big though.

Over time she was more at ease.
Also she is delightful and besides being a skilled specialist,  we would talk of out families also
This occurred before I had you and was still teaching.

Here we are Emma and I have had you,  am I counting correct?
Over 7.5 years?????  And now the Dr.  asks if she can pet you.
I agree and then you lay down in the same spot you have for all those years.
And you are so calm.  You help me stay calm.  You help me in so many ways.

Nope we didn't convince her to let her children get a pet dog she says.
The neighbors dog has also become her friend and she greets him she says.
Amazing the difference you make...

Today a kind woman had to push me in the wheelchair to the elevator and main door.
She had an Aunt with MS so even there in my need
You were an ambassador for Helping Paws and we educated about service dogs.
Perhaps her Aunt will inquire about getting a service dog she thought.
Again you were a star.
You showed how you answer what I say and no just how to move
So we don't get tangled leash and wheel chair
Plus now we have oxygen to deal with.
You never cease to amaze me.

I don't think i take for granted your skills in public
At home I am so use to what you do that when people ask I have to think of what to mention.
We can talk about those skills later.

What I do want to thank you for is the unexpected way you help more and more each day
As I am lossing abilities due to MS and other problems health related
Your comfort,  your presence since we are home more mean so much
Your wonderful morning hellos
Your my reason to remember to peak outside and enjoy the weather
You amuse me as I watch you play in the yard.
You comfort me and calm me as you snore as you snuggle close to me for naps.

We have a link and bond Emma
You snuggle so much closer just when I need it most
Greg,  my husband says he can tell how I am feeling by how close you are laying next to me.
There is no human person who can be with me 24/7
Yet you are my angel that is there,  guarding me with love and embracing me with your calm presence
You give me energy to be hopefully after all you need me as much as I need you.
I love caring for you,  feeding you, petting you,  and
let's keep it between you and me how much I talk to you.
I love how your facial reactions to my words and life situations.

And like all nights you are at my side now
An odd timed long long nap due to that Dr appointment
And struggles with pain have me up as the house here slumbers.
Yet you get up with me,  you tuck your body over my feet to keep me warm.
Not sure why the chills tonight with no fever

Home care comes tomorrow.  A nurse will visit.
You will be at my side.
Let's go my dear Emma and snuggle into bed again.
You will be at my feet since at night time we share that bed with Greg.
He loves you dearly too.
I will feel your breathing in and out gently.
I may hear you dream or snore.
I will feel the warmth of your physical presence in the bed
And be warmed by the love I have for you tucked in a special place in my heart.

God bless you Emma and give you a long dear dear angel.
God bless Judy, Eileen, Sue,  the Michurski family,  Rosie and so many more
Who helped bring you into my life.


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